feeling really really horrible right now. thats not the only thing that is horrible
because right at this moment i look super horrible too. like horrendous.
i have no idea why (but dont i always have none?) but i feel so lousy tonight.
and this feeling just came like 30 minutes ago. i feel like a nutcase now.
i cant stop thinking about tomorrow. apart from a nutcase, im like a total
loser. i kind of suffer from unnecessary paranoia and its really really bad.
to the max infact. it robs me of my sleep and my confidence. but then again,
dont i always have issues with my confidence? im so wrong. everything about
me is wrong. from what i wear to the way i say hi to people. if i could write a book
right now, i would title it "the 5 wrong things you meet in earth" with the things
being me and times that by 5. because i am just so wrong like that.
i hope im wrong.